Can We Trust God?
The only thing I can blog about is what God is teaching me this month. You would think that any believer that started this walk 60 years ago would have this trust thing down. Hopefully, others are not having to be in God’s Trust Classroom their whole lives. They may be quicker learners and are not constantly second-guessing God’s plan in the daily, weekly and yearly. Why is it I still struggle when new trials come my way? Peter tells us to ” Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.” I know this, I’ve taught this! But I’ve yet to let out a “whoopie” when a new trial comes.
You might think this is because I’ve not had that many trials. Maybe not compared to Job and several others , but I cherish the lessons learned in times when all I had was God and discovered that was more than enough. There have been several losses–the loss of my hand in an accident, the loss of our son a few months before he was to be born, and the loss of both parents from devastating diseases. In each case, I learned more about my God as my Peace, Strength, Power, Sustainer as well as the omnipotent Creator I could trust. So why does that Peace not immediately canopy my heart when fears begin to creep in? Are all those lessons learned for naught?
With loved ones living in a foreign land that is ramping up hostilities to internationals, I find myself vacillating between a wonderful Peace and glimpses of panic that keep peeking up, trying to steal that calm. Time with the Father and reading His Word calm those fears but as conditions worsen, here comes that worry and doubt. 2 Timothy 1:7 tells us “God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” So if God has not given me this fearful spirit, I know it comes from Satan who wants to rob my joy and peace.
I wish there was a post script to the book of Job as to how he handled the rest of his life after trials. Did his new knowledge of and relationship with the Creator ever waver in the challenges of old age? Did he continue to thank God every time he saw a cloud and was humbled again at his inability to duplicate it? Did he look at his new family and ever fear knowing how quickly they could be taken from him? I tend to think Job’s lessons were so well learned that he was able to see God’s hand in every blessing and struggle. This God he had “heard of” and now “knew” was constantly on his heart and mind because Job had learned he shouldn’t/couldn’t question an all-knowing Creator. The only thing left was to trust Him.
We’ve all been there when it comes to areas where we have little or no expertise. We have to trust the mechanic, plumber or doctor. It’s not comfortable to do so but we have no choice. Why do we struggle so much more with trusting the ultimate Expert who is perfectly infallible unlike your mechanic, plumber or doctor. Is it possible we actually don’t believe the all-knowing, all-seeing, all-loving Creator of the universe knows what He is doing? Our doubts and fears resemble a rebellious teenager, questioning a loving parent’s motives and love. Our Father who sent His Son to the cross in our place could only want what is good for us. Why is it so hard to not immediately trust and know we serve a living God?
The God that set the world spinning, parted the Red Sea, came down as a baby, died and came alive is the same God I don’t immediately trust with fears that try to creep in. The promises from a trustworthy God are worth more than any visible evidence. Noah waited while each bird sent out came back with no evidence of dry land. God had been trustworthy in the years of building, loading and floating in the ark. Did Noah ever doubt God who had foreseen every part of his story? Did he have glimpses of panic that God would now abandon him to float endlessly? With no visible signs of God’s promise of dry land, Noah kept tending his family and animals. He was faithful because he knew God was faithful. Can we likewise rely on our living God that has seen us through in the past? Of course, the answer is a resounding YES!
My desire is a walk so close to the living God that fears and doubts never distract my gaze from the face of the One that fills my life with so much Hope and Peace. The Psalmist tells of a “river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy habitation of the most High. God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved; God will help her when the morning dawns. The nations rage, the kingdoms totter; He utters His voice, the earth melts. The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.” Ps 46:4-7
Lord, make me a river whose streams make you glad because you are in the middle of all I do. Therefore, I shall not be moved.
Kathie grew up in a Christian home on a cotton farm near Hale Center, Texas. She met Mike while attending Wayland Baptist University and took her first teaching job in Perth, Western Australia shortly after they were married. After a few years, they returned to Texas and raised their three children in several towns around the Panhandle as Mike took jobs as principal and then superintendent of schools. Kathie retired 3 years ago after teaching science and math for 25 years. The freedom of retirement has enabled her to be involved in several ministries and gardening as well as be involved in the lives of their children and 10 grandchildren spread across the US and overseas. Kathie says her life sermon is the Peace and Power that is available to all believers through our relationship through Jesus. “I lived my early years thinking and belonging to Christianity as a club with fire insurance. In my mid-twenties, I caught a glimpse of the relationship God wanted with me if I would only trust Him with all of my life. I gave it all to him and my life has never been the same.”